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"I’m not like most people"   Leave a comment


I’ve always known that “I’m not like most people”.

I’m just not.

It’s not that I’m ‘spectacular’ in any sort of way.
Or stunningly beautiful, because I’m not.
I have nothing to boast about career-wise.

Neither am I lofty, donating my time to some sort of cause.
And I cannot claim that I am accomplished at anything noteworthy, not really.

However, if we look at the human side, the “what makes people tick” – really.
Their need to feel loved and to be loving. To be understood, respected, heard,
to be adored, and to feel ‘special’’ wanted, desired, and purposeful to others;
a sense of belonging and  connectedness to some one else; we call ‘lover’, partner, boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, life long partner, husband, or wife .. . all the tangled webs we weave, just being, being ‘who we are’. seeking pleasure, comfort and connectedness. In this there lies compassion.

This “Passion”, this individual spark, this intimate, vulnerable, inexplicable, wondrous, subjective side of each of us is riddled with hurts, pain and sadness – but also of joy and wonder, laughter and beauty; amazement.

Where do you ‘belong’? What sings your hearts song? What keeps you awake at night? What makes you cry? What soothes your soul; brings you solace?

How many times have you poured your heart out only to be fooled, or to be crushed, or to be dumbfounded at where you find your life to be, and wondering what compelling dogma led you into such a scape?

These matters of the heart; what lies deeper than the surface, what is of the core, this place we get caught up in .. . the ‘defining moments’ in life that we all are either celebrating in or striving to regain composer after suffering tragic blows that set us into despair until be reign again. This cycle, the stuff that makes a man a human being is the life blood that I find fascinating and confounding, it’s where my being gravitates. It is where I can see the big picture and where I find an innate, intrinsic understanding,
without labels, certainty, or  judgments.

It is what makes sense to me – or if it does not I must continue to listen to my journey and find meaning, an understanding of, an “ah-ha” moment or series of moments.

Without knowing why or why not, or even ‘how’, I seek what lies beneath … because ‘knowing’ is what we can find there. We can find ourselves. We can be set free.

We can belong, some where, and find Solace.



aeh – March 21, 2015
8 days until My Moms Birthday

I think of her, now
my stone,
my power, my hidden strength
my kindred spirit.

TodaY, toDay


Posted March 21, 2015 by Hot Tall Blonde in The Minds Eye, Uncategorized

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What You Sea



Posted February 17, 2014 by Hot Tall Blonde in Featured, The Minds Eye

Disappointment – The Poetics Of . . .   Leave a comment poetics of

The meaning of disappointment in a deeper form than simply to be the frustration of wishes or expectations – failure, defeat, and mortification, signifying a more complex and traumatic experience in which self is estranged from the hopes of selfhood.

The psychic state of being disappointed results in a complex condition of psychological deadlock; isolating , demoralizing, and humiliated both in itself and in its idea of what it means to be a subject.

The pleasures of the self are obliterated (rather than solemnized).   

The dream sustaining all other dreams dies.

An experience of loss fractures and paralyzes the formerly hopeful self, because it makes the self seem in retrospect to have been arrogant and naive. The self now regard itself as having grossly overestimated its power and significance, and it loses ontological status in its own eyes: it seems to itself a mediocre thing and is at a loss to know how to employ its remaining energies of thought and desire. The dream sustaining all other dreams dies; one is left (as Ashbery puts it) “To awake and try to begin living in what / Has now become a slum.”

The paradigm of such discomfiture

The psychological impasse of disappointment, in which the self is compromised to the extent that is has lost its resources of pride and defiance and is reduced to seeking comfort in pieties it does not really accept.

The compounded influence of disappointment has an abysmal quality; its self-consciousness, its haunting self-doubt, and its oppression. The exploration of such effects governs the poetry of many Wordsworth successors; Shelley and Wallace Stevens particularly.

Poetic works are reviewed that represents the self struggling not only to recover an interest in the experience of the world but also in the experience of being an experiencing subject.

With a sense of future having been cut off one’s new purpose is to suppress feeling and self-consciousness, and ultimately to distract himself from his own existence. Beyond the goal of becoming numb and with one’s course of actions halted, suspended in a fraught condition of paralysis – as to be doubly afflicted: to have to labor at an existence deprived of self-delight but also confined to the beholding of his degraded state.

Coleridge lyrics here is an example being true to self in the state of disappointment, which appears to be chronic and insurmountable; leaving off to offer his good wishes to another:

             Tis midnight, but small thoughts have I of sleep:
             Full seldom may my friend such vigils keep!
             Visit her, gentle Sleep! with wings of healing.


” Don’t put all your belief into another in sustaining your own happiness in life – create your own happiness and trust that.

Life is fluid. Our ability to find happiness in the journey is directly correlated to how willing we are to let go and go with the flow.

It’s easy to fall into a downward spiral when our core is shaken by something we weren’t expecting. Do something that boosts you up instead of something that contributes to your sadness, anger and frustration.

I wish you Peace!”  ~ H.T.B.

This volume offers a revision of romantic poetry. The author argues that the form of disappointment examined by the romantic poet often finds him bewildered and oppressed, in a state beyond the simple failure of literary ambition or romantic love.

[The Poetics of Disappointment: Wordsworth to Ashbery by Laura Quinney]

Mind Power Techniques   Leave a comment

Talking directly to your subconscious using mind power techniques

This article contains a neat little trick that allows you to completely bypass your conscious mind to talk directly to your subconscious.



Mind Power Techniques


I want to talk a little about the subconscious mind before I give you the details of this trick.

The conscious, preconscious, subconscious minds and mind power techniques

Our conscious mind is our rationale.  It is our waking conscious thoughts, actions and speech.  It includes our feelings, perceptions and sensations within our current awareness.  We also have something called the preconscious mind where information is stored that we need frequently and it can be draw upon very quickly when necessary.  Then we have our subconscious which contains all the information from all the experiences we have ever been though or witnessed from everyday in our life to date.  It also holds our most sacred beliefs about ourselves and others and our emotions.  Experiencing feelings and not knowing why consciously is the work of the subconscious mind!

The conscious mind is also known as the gate keeper to the subconscious.  So for example if someone tries to tell you something that conflicts with what you already believe, although your hear and understand what they are saying, the conscious mind will filter the information so it never reaches the subconscious and therefore never changes your current belief on this matter.  So with that in mind, if you currently believe that you cannot be successful, it doesn’t really matter what anyone says to you, you won’t be successful because you don’t believe you can be.

The solution to this problem is the use of certain mind power techniques which allow information to bypass the conscious mind and get directly in to the subconscious.  Many years ago I used to be in direct sales, walking into businesses and selling to the small business owner.  It was a hard job and very often if I didn’t get a sale in the morning I didn’t get one all day, as the day went on it would get worse and I would think I am never going to get a sale today, and invariably I wouldn’t.  I started to get into a bit of a downward spiral about my sales technique and lack of success.

Then a friend introduced me to what I am going to tell you about in a minute and everything changed.  I started to make sales again and started to believe in my own abilities as a sales person.  So I know from personal experience that this trick does really work.


You will need 2 bits of equipment

A loud ticking clock, if you have an I phone there is an app you can download which is just as good and it is free! You will also need string of beads, a long chunky bead necklace is excellent, make sure it has around 50 beads.

The principle behind this trick is to keep the conscious mind occupied with the ticking  clock, while you speak directly to your subconscious.  When I first started using this method as a sale person, my mantra was “I will make a sale tomorrow” and it worked, then I upped the ante to “I will make a sale on my first call tomorrow” that worked too, of course once I got that first sale, the rest of the day was quite easy.  Once I was confident with the first sale, I changed my mantra to “I will sell $XXXX tomorrow” and so on.  I got so good at sales that it wasn’t long before I got promoted to sales team leader!

To carry this reprogramming out successfully you need to get into a comfortable position, either sitting or lying down.  Make sure you are fully relaxed and will not be interrupted or distracted by anything else going on. You need to be close enough to the clock so you can focus in on the rhythm of the ticking.  Have the beads in your hands and with every bead you touch say your mantra out loud. You should say it at least 50 times twice a day.  Once you have changed one of your beliefs you can go on the change others, the more you do this, the better you will get at it and you will see amazing changes in yourself and your circumstances.  All you need it to believe it will work.

Posted July 27, 2012 by Hot Tall Blonde in The Minds Eye

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How to Manifest Desires in 4 Easy Steps, Pt. 1   Leave a comment

How to Manifest Desires in 4 Easy Steps, Pt. 1

When you use power of subconscious to manifest desires, what do you usually do? You might state or write affirmations, do a visualization meditation, create a vision board or a mind movie, give a cosmic order, or maybe you just pray the old-fashioned way. These are all common methods of manifesting and are well and good. But the question is, do you usually get what you desire?

Many of you have an uneven track record in creating reality. Sometimes you manifest desires readily, while other times they resist all your efforts to make them happen. This leaves you feeling deeply frustrated and uncertain. Today, we will examine an important element for success in manifesting: the consciousness of having.

When something is absent from your life that you wish you had, it is natural to feel a desire for that thing — you want it. But have you noticed that when you already have something, you don’t desire it, you don’t want it, and you don’t need to do any reality creation methods to manifest it? This might seem obvious to you, but stay with me and an important distinction will be made clear.

It is impossible to have something and desire to have it at the same time! For example, if you would like a new car but are still driving your old one, you will desire and want a new car. When you get the new car, you will likely enjoy it and appreciate having it, but you won’t desire it or want it because you already have it. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted December 31, 2010 by Hot Tall Blonde in The Minds Eye

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How to Change Your Thoughts   Leave a comment

How to Change Your Thoughts

by Steven Aitchison on November 26, 2010

What is a thought?

We first have to define what a thought is.

A thought, in its basic form, is an electrical impulse which sparks neurons firing in your brain to produce some kind of feeling within you.  These impulses can be triggered by what you see, hear, taste, touch and smell; the five senses.  They are also triggered by memories of what you have seen, heard, smelt, touched and tasted.

Over thinking

You’ll notice, if you pay close attention, that most of our thoughts are repetitive in nature, we think the same thoughts day in and day out: got to go to work, got to do this at work, what will I have for dinner, how can I make the boss happy, how can I make myself happy, why are they not like me, how can I get out of the rate race, what will they think of me, how can I make my wife happier, I can’t do that, I wished I was more like them, how can I spend more time with my family…………….

Since our thoughts are mostly repetitive, we go round in an ever-lasting circle, unless the circle gets broken.

So, if one of your repetitive thoughts are: “I am no good,” what do you think will happen? Your brain is wired to provide evidence to support the hypothesis you are repeating.  If you think you are no good at math, you will find evidence to support this thought.  You will remember all the times you have been in situations in which you were no good at math, you will remember all the times your father shouted at you because you were no good at maths, you will think back to the time you were laughed at because you were no good at maths.  The little ‘Numskulls’ in your brain will be running around shouting ‘Quick, we have to find evidence to support his thoughts that he is no good at math’, and like an obedient dog, your brain will find lots of evidence to support your thoughts.

The wonder of you

Here’s the wonder that is you: If you reverse that original thought, and you started thinking, I am good at math.  The little ‘Numskulls’ will scratch their head for a bit and say ‘Right lads, we need to find evidence that he is good at maths,’ and you’ll start to remember the time you got a question right in the math class and your teacher said ‘well done’, you remember the time your father patted you on the back and said, ‘well done son’, you remember the time your mother smiled and called you a ‘clever cookie,’ you’ll remember the time your friend was crying in frustration and you helped her with her math homework.

Here’s the other wondrous thing that will happen.  Those good thoughts that you had about being good at math will enhance your motivation to be good at math, which in turn will increase your good feeling and provide you more evidence to show how good at math you are.  Not only that, but that one repeating thought will go on to spark other neurons in your brain to trigger more good memories about your self worth in other areas of your life. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted December 31, 2010 by Hot Tall Blonde in The Minds Eye

Power of Subconscious   Leave a comment

Introduction to Power of Subconscious

Mastering power of subconscious begins with learning how to center yourself. We will begin with a short history of the subconscious within the field of psychology, then I will guide you through the Power of Subconscious Centering Meditation.

In traditional psychology, the subconscious, also known as the unconscious, is believed to be a mental storage site — a repository of memories, emotions, habits and associations. These stored elements form beliefs that operate outside of your awareness, determining who you are, how you act and what your life looks like. To gain control of the undesirable aspects of your life, you must become aware of the elements that are stored in your subconscious and the beliefs they have engendered.


But in traditional psychology, the subconscious is also portrayed as the saboteur within –something dangerous, something manipulating you, something you shouldn’t examine too closely or you might go mad. This causes people to fear their own inner selves and gives rise to the analyst’s couch, a safe environment where the subconscious mind can be peeled back layer by layer, like an onion.

Traditional views of the subconscious die hard. Psychiatry and psychology still tend to demonize the subconscious or marginalize it as an inferior part of mind. Meanwhile the conscious mind is touted as the be all and end all; higher consciousness is denied altogether.

But a deeper understanding of reality reveals that mind is no thing and there are no divisions. Conscious, subconscious, superconscious are not parts of the brain, they are merely descriptive terms applied to the invisible — yet they are terms that have been repeated so often, for so long, in so many ways and places, they are taken as physical fact.

Power of subconscious begins by letting go of your preconceptions and allowing yourself to move into what I call vertical awareness which is the consciousness of self in the moment. Your thoughts have created a horizontal field of energy stretching in all directions — the literal meaning of feeling scattered or spread too thin. But thought stops in a state of vertical awareness.

The following brief exercise will give you a glimpse of vertical awareness. Read through the paragraph below, then find a quiet place. Empty your mind of all you were told or thought you knew about the subconscious and enjoy the short exercise that follows.

Close your eyes. Breathe in through your nose to the count of 7. Hold for a few moments.
Then breathe out to the count of 8 through partially closed lips. Repeat two more times.

Visualize a net of energy extending horizontally in all directions. This is your thought field.
Take a leap of faith and let go of your thought field, trusting that you don’t need to hold onto it.

Let go of the field and you instantly come back to yourself.
Inner silence signals the arrival of your power.

Now imagine your physical body enveloped by a column of energy
that begins below your feet and extends above your head.

In vertical awareness what is above merges with what is below; as above so below.
You feel the rush of unified consciousness and have taken the first step toward unleashing
power of subconscious.

* more: Power of Subconscious.

Posted December 31, 2010 by Hot Tall Blonde in The Minds Eye

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